Angry, Mad, Sad, Annoyed (I'm sure you get the point here)

So, it's been 2 weeks. I've eaten right. I've eaten less. I've worked out, on average 6 times a week. I have lost nothing. I had lost 3 lbs. But it's all back. It is soooo frustrating that nothing has happened. I mean, what's the point?

Frustration

It's been a week. I've worked out 5 out of the 7 days. I've eaten well. And I have lost nothing. Okay, I will wait for it... blah, blah, blah (that is what I hear when you are telling me that muscle weighs more than fat.)

I'm not giving up. It is just hard to keep it up. I have the best motivation there is: my family. And part of my family is me. I need to do this for myself.

So, I will continue. I suppose, even if I am not losing weight, I am getting healthier. That's something.

Ugg...

First of all, I am still on track. I know, it's only the 3rd day, but it's still something, right? I'm slightly discouraged becuase I weighed myself yesterday and it said 256. Well, today, I was at almost 257. I know that it's not a day by day thing. I know that it's the long-run that's important, but still!! I gained a pound in a day when I have been working out and eating right!?!?

The EA Sports Active tells you to work out 2 days, rest a day, work out 2 days, etc. I think that, at least for now, I feel better if I am working out every day. I decided that I will just do a lower level workout on the rest day.

Yesterday, we went to Gringo's for dinner (yummy!!!) I had soup and salad. The tortilla soup was great and has a ton of veggies in it. I also had a nice little healthy snack before we left, so I wouldn't be so hungry that I ate a ton of chips and queso.

Today, I am going to the grocery store. I am a snacker, so I figure I need to have a ton of healthy snacks around so I'm not tempted by Sophia's cookies or ice cream.

So, there you go. I'm on track. I gained weight. I'm not going to let it get me down.

Day One

I worked out today. I am really out of shape. But, I can say that I did it all. I was planning on starting this whole thing on Monday, but I figured that since I was motivated now, and I had the Wii Active, I might as well start today.

My goals:

1) Get back under 200lbs
2)Be able to shop for clothes at a normal store. No more fat clothes for me!

It seems simple enough. I have a couple of friends who are also working on loosing weight. Susan, has already lost 60lbs! And that's since June. I hope that if I am having a hard time, they will be there to push me through.

I guess I need to get it out there. I have very carefully avoided saying how much I weigh. But, I need to just get it out there. I went to the doctor on Thursday, and I was 260 lbs. So, I need to loose 61 pounds to reach my first goal. I haven't been under 200 since well before I got married. I weighed 213 the day that we got married and I was wearing a size 18.

So, day 1, so far so good. I plan on having a salad at Whataburger and a diet Dr. Pepper.

A journey begins (hopefully)

So, I have made a decision that I need to loose weight. I have made that decision before. I have tried before. I have lost weight before. I have failed miserably before. In the end, not of that matters. What matters is that I need to do this now. There are several reasons for this. So, here they are:
1) I have 2 wonderful kids. I want to be healthy for them. I want to want to play with them. I don't want them to learn a sedentary life from me. I want to be around long enough to see their children. For this, I need to be healthy.
2) I have absolutely no self esteem. I realized that there are VERY few pictures of me with my family. This is because I don't like how I look. I don't want to see pictures of myself. It's not fair to them and it's not fair to me.
3) I want my clothes to fit. AND I want to like how they fit.

I'm sure that there are more reasons, but I don't want to get into them.

So, I have a plan. Part of that plan is this blog. I somehow think that if I write about it, I will be less likely to fail. Also, I bought Wii Active. I figure I can find 45 minutes a day while Andrew is napping when I can work out. I am going to eat well. When I say this, I don't mean that I'm going to stop eating. I don't even mean that I'm going to stop eating things that I like. I just mean that I am going to try and do it all in moderation. I am still going to Whataburger on Saturdays before skating lessons. I am still going out to eat on Sundays with Josh, Sophia, Andrew, Monica, Blane, Jennifer, and Justin. I am going to try and make better choices . We will see where it goes from here.

There it is. Either I will fail miserably or I will succeed. Only time will tell.